In aere aedificare

If there is one thing I regret looking back on the times I've spent in fandom, it would have to be the post in which I confessed my age. I would have still confessed, but I wish I had been more articulate and reasonable in doing so. It might be optimistic of me to think this, but I feel like I might have kept some valuable friendships if I had handled the post differently. I did feel betrayed. I still think I had a right to feel betrayed, because I trusted the ones I revealed my age to back then. However, I should have expressed the betrayal in a different manner, or perhaps even in a separate post. I realized after I posted it that it could be taken in the wrong context. That is perhaps the one post that I left in its rawest form, but I should have edited it as though it were the most important thing I would ever write.

I cannot believe how quickly time flies. It's been over two years since I made that post in May of 2005, yet my stomach still burns when I dare to look at it. I was fourteen years old; I'll be seventeen on the second of November.

Right now, I would like to apologize to all of the fandom members I lied to back then. I know you felt betrayed like I did.

I would also like to thank all of the friends who stuck with me even after I confessed. Words cannot express how much your loyalty has meant to me through the years.